Aaliyah’s final album was ahead of its time sonically and fits perfectly with current experimental R&B.Read More
What makes ‘Pose’ incredible is the commitment to authenticity, character development, and the much-needed narrative it gives to the fallen of the 80’s HIV/AIDS epidemic.Read More
Written by Mwabi Kaira
I am weeks away from turning 42 and will be the first to declare my grown status. I tell my kids, the youngsters at the office, the internet, and anyone who will listen that I am grown as fuck and don’t need the foolery that comes with being ungrown. I was assigned to write about Yara Shahidi’s show Grown-ish back when it premiered and had no expectations of it. My college days are long gone, and I got the Freaknik tee to prove it. Class of 1996 National Freaknik League in the house. It was a good time. I sadly got rid of my favorite t-shirt a few years ago cause it had seen better days and it was time. I watched Grown-ish more for being in the know purposes since I have a college age kid and one not too far behind. I wanted to see what the kids are up to post High School these days.
Grown-ish is a well-written show, and this grown-up relates to it so much. The season finale had me in my feelings and had me questioning just how grown I am. Why at almost 42 am I relating so much to these 19-year-old kids? Why at nearly 42 am I still trying to decipher nigga-speak by all the shit they refuse to say or the little they do say that makes very little sense? Why at almost 42 am I still holding my breath waiting for them to get me outside from the dance so they can tell me that they like me and when they do the guy that I really like be standing right behind me watching it all? And why at almost 42 when I’m so confused about everything does the ex that broke my heart into a million pieces show up at my door unexpectedly and suddenly want me back?
Ok, so maybe my life is not a Grown-ish episode, but I’ve had three niggas hit me with the hey big head text in a 24 hour period so I can relate. This is the shit I just knew I’d leave behind in my 20’s but here we are. I would never have imagined that in 2018 I’d be asking men to use their words and say what’s on their mind. I just knew we'd had it together by now. We would have got to the point where we had learned what worked for us and what didn’t when it came to relationships. We would have learned to communicate and face hard decisions head-on. We would know who we wanted, and everything would be peachy. Undoubtedly God set it up for bad decisions to be made in our 20’s with just a little overflow into our early 30’s. By 35 clarity would hit us like a mug and those five years to 40 would be us perfecting it all so we could be ready for our 40’s - the glory days. Nope, as per yoozh (usual), the homey God is out here with our roadmaps in hand knowing our finish lines and just watching us figure it all out like the confused people he made us be. One day we’ll figure it out.
I am grown but still learning. I guess life is designed to be forever grown-ish-ish. A 65-year-old sees me as a baby with so much more to learn, and I look at a 25-year-old with eyes full of pity because girl, who wants ever to go back there? I’m not as quick to jump to conclusions these days, and that comes with age. I have peace now that I didn’t have in my 20’s. Back then I was unsettled in my soul and was chasing the unknown. All my energies went into career and family. I feel settled now, and my future includes jet planes and seeing the world. There are beauty and certainty that comes with being grown and knowing that it is never-ending and always more to learn is pretty exciting.
I’ve been in a marriage and a few relationships and always take a relationship autopsy when they end. Of course, I take time to mourn them and eat more than I should, go into my shell and hate every man standing. I don’t want them to look at me, smile, hell even breathe. When I come out of this, I go into my self-improvement mode, and I’m eating right, running 25 miles weekly and doing things I put on the back burner while in the relationship.Read More
This week's podcast spotlight is on John Salvatore a.k.a The Pod Squad Quarterback a.k.a. Cuban Roast in the Flesh a.k.a. Fidel Cashflow on these Hoes! John is the leader of a movement he calls #WeAllWin; he supports creativity and goes above and beyond to show love to podcasters in the community. Mr. Salvatore is quite the busy man as he is apart of several shows hosted on his feed. I've included some of his work below:
Podcasting for the past year and a half has been a rewarding experience. Outside of gaining new listeners and having a weekly outlet of crazy things that occur in my head, I have enjoyed the sense of community that surrounds audio creatives. I have made so many new friends who are also podcast hosts. Not only are these people supportive, but they also have fantastic and consistent content. Starting with this post, I want to begin highlighting some of my favorite shows to listen.
There is no shortage of podcasts led by same-gender loving individuals, but one thing that certainly catches my eye is originality and content that moves away from the norm. "Gayside Stories" is no exception to this ideal. Led by the hilarious and honest Trillificent, this pod brings the latest in gay media while it also "examines aspects of the LGBTQA 'lifestyle' through discussions and personal stories, with meaningful lessons along the way." Along with very colorful guest hosts, visibility is spread to encourage and educated the masses.
Check out some of my favorites episodes of "Gayside Stories," including the show I had the pleasure of joining.
Make sure you subscribe to "Gayside Stories" on various platforms and follow Trillificent on Social Media.
Vibing With The Kids
I’ve been a parent for over 18 years now, and the best part has always been watching their minds at work. One day they’re talking the cutest baby talk, and the next minute they’re getting their Socrates on, and philosophizing on life with you and all you can do is stare at them in awe and wonder how you created such masterpieces. Yes, I’m that Mama; the one that’s their biggest cheerleader, hype man, and the one they can’t stand— lovingly of course.Read More
Written by Mwabi Kaira
I had the pleasure of seeing the excellent and very moving Black Panther, three days before it was released in theaters last week and I couldn’t wait to talk about it. I then went out of town so I couldn’t see it with my kids but loved seeing everyone all over the world post about it. I came back to town and jumped back into all my responsibilities, so I haven’t been back to see it, but I’m itching to see it at least twice more by the weekend. More than anything, my heart swelled with pride seeing all of us melanin folks represented in such a way that brought tears to our eyes.
Wearing African print if you’re not Hotep has only become fashionable these past few years. It used to be the fastest way to be the laughing stock. Seeing black folks wear African print garb to the theatre was so beautiful and empowering. Hearing T’Challa, Shuri, Nakia, and Okoye roll off of black tongues without people overthinking it is nothing short of amazing. My waiting-on-a-table- at-restaurants-and-Starbucks name is AJ because you all wore me thin, swearing you couldn’t pronounce my name. I have tried giving lessons; Muah (like a kiss) - Bee, I’ve spelled it out letter by letter but you all keep going back to Yambi, Wawee, and whatever variation of my five letter name you feel like calling me that day and I just quit. Because of Wakanda all of you are about say my name three times just like Destiny’s Child if you ask me for it. I have no time if you won’t commit to saying it right.
Being transported to Wakanda is so crucial because we are represented in the film. No one’s skin was lit differently to fit in with co-stars, we got every hue of melanin. One wig made an appearance on the screen; it was a nuisance. We didn’t have to imagine ourselves on the screen like we have to do 95% of the time because it was a reality. Being from Africa, I typically watch scenes shot in Africa under a microscope because they are rarely accurate to real experiences. It’s usually apparent that the production takes place on a soundstage, and they’re either overdone or underdone. Black Panther got it so right and didn’t just focus on one region of Africa. With T’Chaka, I felt like I was in the room with my Grandfather and missed him. Ramonda said things that my mother still says to me. Nakia and Oluye were like my sister-gurls and Shuri my little niece. What I know for sure is that had M’Baku walked by me and said, “Gurl, let me holla at ya,” no one would ever see or hear from me again. I'd be with him, enjoying my life.
The video of the two little black boys outside the theater saying which one in the poster they were, followed up with the video of the little girls and their spears performing like Oluye and her Army was heartwarming. This theme reveals why representation is so important. Before November 2008, I could tell my sons that they could grow up to be President, and I’m sure they believed it but seeing someone that looked like them become the President solidified the dream that much more. Everyone involved in Black Panther made history and have started a movement that I pray continues forever. For this moment, we’ll eternally be grateful.
Written by Mwabi Kaira
It’s love week, the one week of the year when self-pity is at its highest. It's painful to watch. Single folks suddenly zoom in on their singleness and all that's wrong with them, the world, and everybody breathing. It’s like watching a sad movie; a usually jovial and outgoing person suddenly becomes sullen, and their smiles and happiness are replaced with status updates about the lack of good men and women and how they ain’t shit.
Even though I was married, I sent myself flowers on my 25th birthday. Most people hear that and think my husband must not have been romantic. He was, but I felt like a grown-up woman walking into her Queendom. I say that to say I’ve never been one who allows society to dictate what I want. My husband probably took me to dinner, and I still got presents that day, but I wanted particular flowers delivered to me complete with a card that read, “Live your life girl” and I did just that.
After my divorce, I naturally carried the same attitude into my new single life. I’ve never taken Valentine’s Day to be a day to feel sorry for myself. I buy myself flowers all the time, not just on Valentine’s Day, and I find things to do that interest me. This year my neighborhood bar is having a “Non-Romantic Singles Night” that I’m going to. The bartender explained the night to me last Friday when he invited me, and I can’t remember the details, but he had me at Non-Romantic. I plan to have a few drink and laugh the night away.
Beloveds, you have a choice. Don’t scowl at your co-workers if they get flowers delivered at work. Don’t be that person looking through your timeline getting madder by each post as couples show their social media love for one another. Don’t let this trigger you. Log off. Do something loving for yourself and treat yourself how you want to be treated. This year do something different and remembers that self-love and self-preservation is the way to go. Ask yourself what you need and be the one to fulfill that need.
Tips for Valentine’s Day:
- Do not get upset looking at people’s love posts because you are not in a relationship.
- Do not compare what you receive from your partner to what others earn; this is your relationship, not theirs.
- Do not downplay your love to avoid offending others.
- Celebrate yourself today because you are love and loved.
Valentine’s Day is about commerce.
Cry if you want to but know you don’t have to. Instead, refocus your energy and live chile. I’ll be down to my neighborhood bar celebrating life and margaritas. Smooches.
Written by Mwabi Kaira
The most significant thing I don’t miss about being boo’ed up is the social media drama. They love your social media presence when they’re pursuing you but act like you’re out here selling everything from the follicles on your head to your toenails on the Gram once you’ve established a relationship. I’d understand if I was being Kim Kardashian with my posts and attempting to break the internet, but nope, I’m just out here posting smiling pictures in cute outfits mixed in with inspirational quotes but stayed getting accused of who knows what.
Teyana Taylor posted a picture of her banging body in a Fashionova outfit over the holidays, and it was received with several likes and comments as are all her posts. Her husband Iman Shumpert commented on it as well but not in his usual cutesy “I’m glad you’re mine, and I get to enjoy you forever” way. His comment was asking another man to explain why he liked Teyana’s post. I’m not familiar with Juju of Love and Hip Hop fame, but I am an avid listener of The Breakfast Club and watched both her and rapper Cam’Ron, her ex-boyfriend’s interviews. They have recently ended their ten-year relationship, and per Cam’Ron it was because it wasn’t fun anymore and he didn’t like how invested Juju was in her IG. Juju countered by explaining that all she ever wanted from Cam’Ron was respect on IG; she didn’t like the perception he was projecting by the posts he loved. She also did not like how he eventually let one of his female IG friends go at her not come to her defense.
Both these situations had me thinking about IG relationship etiquette 101 and what it entails. Does it include policing your mate's posts and analyzing every comment then having a stank attitude about made up scenarios in your head? Or is the first rule to respect and trust your mate? Are friends breaking code if they like or comment on their friend's mate’s post? Is that off limits?
I get it; no one is posting just to post, whether it is the clear intent or buried deep down, validation is at the core. We want to see likes, and we want the “looking great” comments. It’s what we do with it that takes us to murky waters. If not getting them makes us snappy to our mate then we must pause and re-evaluate. If in moments of disagreements with our mate we choose to get our fill from admirers from the Gram then we must hesitate and re-evaluate.
What I know for sure at this stage in my life is that I can’t be in a relationship with someone who feels that they come second to the Gram. I can’t be questioned about my moves on the Gram because if you have to ask me, we haven’t established what we are doing. I won’t police a mate and spend too much time over-analyzing because I don’t have the energy for it. I’ve done it, and it's not fun. If I’m in a relationship with you, you see whatever I post in real time. If I think my outfit is cute, I’m wearing it for you to see and asking you if you think it’s cute. I’m posting as an afterthought. How are you going to be mad? I still believe that one day I will be in a relationship that will set and keep my soul on fire. We will be open and honest with each other, and social media won’t ever be one of our issues.
I’m in tune with myself and don’t like when my equilibrium is off. Like most of the world, social media has become part of my everyday life. I don’t watch the news for self-care reasons, and everything I know is from my timeline. I find out about what’s going on in the people I love lives from their Facebook posts, and Instagram keeps me posted on whose cute and what common event they turned into a photo shoot. IG has also given me the gift that is "The Shade Room," my lunch break scroll of choice. I no longer have to wait to watch a daily entertainment show; celebrities break their news and release their own IOS press releases on their social media, and "The Shaderoom" compiles it in one spot for me.
Over the holidays I had more time to indulge in social media and too much went down. My current favorite Cardi B’s nudes leaked, and I was heartbroken. Not "heartbroken" just to say I was sad but heartbroken like my-lover-had-decided-to-leave-me-and-I-didn’t-see-it-coming heartbroken. I tossed and turned, and I knew that my love for Cardi was fresh but this was her life, and I needed to let her live it over there.
Then Tamar released her IOS press release about Vince having a baby, and it was 24 hours of an ongoing story with different parties chiming in. Suddenly Vince was not the adoring husband singing the cute theme song to their show anymore. He wasn’t the doting husband putting up with the over the top antics of his wife and the loving father with his mini-me Logan looking at him like Superman anymore. I was already feeling uneasy watching their marriage fall apart on their show and all of this playing out of social media just made me feel like a front row unwanted participant to a breakdown. My breakdowns are enough for me, and I don’t need to witness anyone else's. I didn’t lose sleep over this one but spent too much time analyzing and agonizing over it. Then my timeline filled with two beefing hotep brothers and I had had enough!
I needed a break, and I needed to find my center.
So Facebook and Instagram were removed from my phone on New Year’s Eve, and I got back to living life in real time without documenting it. I didn’t reach for my phone every morning and start scrolling. IG stories were no longer my lullaby. I enjoyed not being in the know about every entertainment story and catching up if my favorite podcasts mentioned it. At red lights, I waited for the light to change to green without picking up my phone and scrolling. I discovered audiobooks and listened to four books. And most importantly I became exceptionally productive and created a writing schedule that has remained.
It’s been 23 days, and I feel balanced again. I added my social media back on my phone and will work hard at not being so invested in other people’s lives and concentrate on my own. I will work at monitoring how much time I spend on social media, and as soon as I feel off center again, I will adjust until I calibrate just right.
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Being a 'woke' immigrant is hard and exhausting. The hard part is being 'woke' in itself and seeing all the injustices, mistreatment and discrepancies placed on black and brown immigrants in comparison to other immigrants. The exhausting part is seeing immigrants of color defend this treatment and agree with it.
Last week dude called my country a shithole. For almost 48 hours, nothing was said to defend it, and then they said he didn’t say "shithole," he said "shithouse." Okay, way to clarify that administration, huge difference there. He said he preferred people from Norway to immigrate to the US because they have something to offer unlike the shithole/house countries of Haiti and Africa —not a country. A year has passed and not only are we still alive, but we are past the shock level of what dude says on a daily basis. This is real life people, our real life! My initial reaction to his comments was what I have been doing for the past year; I laugh hysterically until my eyes water then I remember that I’m a G and get myself right together.
I know I’m not from a shithole/house country, so I wasn’t bothered by the foolery, but the reactions after his statement gave me serious pause and reminded me of being 'woke.' I expected people who look like the dude to chime in and agree with him. After all, most of them have never left their hometowns, been downtown in their cities, left their states or even own a passport. They agreed with him and most likely can’t locate any of the shithole/house countries on a map.
What I wasn’t expecting was people who look like me and live in these countries to agree with the dude as well. I was so frustrated when an African couple I admired who live in Europe came out publicly as dude’s supporters during the campaign. They proudly sported their red MAGA hats. They spent hours on social media defending dude, and the gag is they couldn’t even vote for him. A video of a Nigerian man agreeing with dude went viral a few days ago. He argued that his country was a shithole/house because its citizens were mistreated by the Government. He forgets that every country including the US has problems. To him and many like him, America can do no wrong. They defend the wrongdoing because they genuinely believe their best interests are being protected.
The complexities of explaining racism to black and brown people who don’t live in the US will never be understood unless it is experienced. They really do believe we are overreacting and making a mountain out of a molehill. Just look at Terry Mango, of Stockholm, Sweden, the mother of the boy in the H&M ad bearing the monkey reference hoodie. Did you see her reaction? She said she had been called a monkey before on a cruise ship and had experienced racism BUT still saw nothing wrong with her son Liam’s ad. She, like others, excuse the obvious and until they have lived in the US and actually experienced racism, you are talking to a brick wall.
Another example of the obvious is being questioned about giving birth to your child in the US as a person of color and being looked at under a microscope while doing so. Meanwhile, Russian women are welcomed to Miami in droves to give birth. News stories are written about them and not a little blurb in the small town paper. An entire camera crew, producer, and reporter sent to cover the story that pregnant Russian women hire an agency to help arrange their trips to Miami and pay up to $100,000 for services including finding apartments (paying 6 months of rent up front), doctors and obtaining visas. Never mind sending those news crews to cover the daily injustices we witness on a regular basis.
America likes nicely packaged things with a high price tag, people included. If you show up unpackaged, unpretty and on the sale rack, you won’t be welcomed like the others because you are ruining the pretty aesthetic. The flag is red, white, and blue for a reason; dark colors and dark people are necessary for labor, background and shithole purposes only.
Like I said, being a 'woke' immigrant is hella exhausting.
Lavar interviews are entertaining to watch; he has an answer for everything and believes everything he says and doesn’t care if you do not. His recent interview in Lithuania ahead of his son’s first game was not as animated as usual and gave me life lesson number 5,831. The interviewer asks Lavar if his sons are nervous. Lavar responds, “No, they are not nervous, and you all are trying to make them nervous.” “But they are in Lithuania,” the interviewer says still trying to sway Lavar who responds, “I do not care if they were on the moon, they are playing basketball in a gym.”Read More
I stopped making resolutions years ago. I can’t remember the exact year, but I do recall feeling peace about the upcoming new year and reflecting on the year that was ending. I thought of all the good things that happened and measured them against the not-so-good times. I searched for the lessons they taught me, thanked God for them, and ended it with an Amen. The next thing I knew, it was a new year, and I carried on.
While watching her perform several hits from her massive catalog, it occurred to me that Janet has not only been around my entire life, but her music also soundtracks many different points in it.Read More
As a California native, there are some things that I’ll always have love for: In-N-Out Burger, beach life, and west coast rap. It’s no surprise that I pre-order my tickets to see the Tupac biopic, “All Eyez On Me” as soon as I could. The film, although not perfect, did not disappoint me in the least. Below are five reasons why you should go see it this weekend.Read More
A quick user's guide on maintaining the Black Body you've stolen #GetOut.Read More
Sunday, June 5th, Kevin Dwayne had the pleasure of being the photographer for the third and final show of The Dingalogues in Atlanta, GARead More
Six months have elapsed since I moved in to my latest home. I’m nearly 30 and for most of my adult years, I’ve gone from living with my parents, to living with roommates, and then living with my previous partner. I was shocked that I’d gone that long without securing a space of my own—and almost missed the opportunity completely. I’ve discovered some true benefits of living alone and I’m now an advocate for it being a prime experience when single.Read More
It’s the last day of the year and the time that many reflect on their accomplishments and life lessons from the previous 365 days. 2015 has been a very transformative year for me. I’ve gone through many changes, mostly positive, and this has brought on some key lessons and an altered perspective on life, love, and overall well-being.Read More